I’ve realized that I’m still attached to your aura. the thought of being with someone else is wonderful, but in actuality, it’s awkward. I can’t deal with getting to know another person. it’s exhausting. getting to know you was exhausting but it was worth the effort. I know I was the one that ended this but I did it prematurely. oddly, I’m comfortable with the thought of us not speaking anymore, but I’m not comfortable with the thought that the connection is lost.
I need time to myself. I’ve jumped from a super serious relationship to a great sex but shitty personality relationship and had no space to just breathe. that’s exactly what I want to do. I want to breathe and find out what makes me happy again. I depended on other people for my happiness and I can’t do that. I need to depend on myself and do a lot of reevaluation and growth. at least I acknowledge that I got issues.
life is suffocating